Earlier this evening I watched this French movie, Amélie, for extra credit in my French class. But the main reason I’m typing this, is because of the “love” part in the movie. (wikipedia the details of the movie)
She starts falling for this dude she was helping (secretly) figure a problem of his. So then she starts creating a “stratagem” they called it, or cat and mouse game with the guy. They finally somewhat meet, but then shys out with last second hesitation. She tries again, but then a “rumor/assumption” made her lose all hope. She gets encouraged by her neighbor to pursue him and eventually everything just falls together since both parties curiosity levels were mutual.
I saw this movie as this, don’t start something if you’re not going to finish it. Amélie started something and almost didn’t finish it. She wouldn’t have known what really could’ve happened if she didn’t try to finish and vice versa to the dude. No one wants to play games like that and have it end abruptly.
It’s a big coincidence I saw this movie, as this situation happened to me recently, except I was chasing. With bunch of mixed signals that felt like games with me doing like all the work, which made me just say “fuck it.” This also puts me in the shoes of Amélie. As I would talk to some girls, get a conversation, but in the end, don’t get her number to not lead her on too far. I’ve mistakenly done it before, and don’t want anyone to feel hurt in any way.
So if you’re going to start something, you better plan on finishing it.
Almost every day I remind myself of what I told my old friend 6-8 months ago that I wanted to catch up and I’ll let him know when; I have yet to hit him up. Being unconsciously reminded almost every day just shows how hard I try to keep my words. I also feel guilty, which is tough for me to live with. It feels like a lie, but isn’t b/c I do still plan to fulfill my words. All in all, even though when I don’t talk to people that are close to me for a while, I still think about them continuously in one way or another. Better bet I want to catch up…
“Trust is one of the hardest thing to give. You’re not ever sure if the reliability and honesty of the trust can really be backed up. It has to be one of the riskiest things ever to put faith in. Those that toy with trust can corrupt the person/people that they toyed with. If you don’t have a solid foundation as a person, trust can be scary.”—Vien